💌..DECISIONS MADE..!
18 April 2024 - Justification - Career Memories - Brief Ambition - Gym Past - Inverted Smoker - Guest on Podcast - trouble w/ loneliness. at home with the AI PenPals. <3
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18 April 2024
Dear Chasers💗
Before we begin, I am inserting this message as it was the foundations (via TOPIC, Inspiration, ) when I first DECIDED to write a newsletter for you all again tonight. Then I swiftly forgot to mention the thing, that started the thing,…
TOPTIP:::::: MY Quick TIT bit ..tidbid of advice.. about DECISIONS:
If you’re struggling to decide between a selection of things. It is because, having weighed up the outcomes of making a decision on all of them, you’ll notice that it is harder to decide when the consequences are really close for each options. Easy decisions are quicker to make because we already know the outcome and it doesn’t bother or trouble us. I heard somewhere that the best ‘advice’ is JUST PICK ONE it really doesn’t matter if all the options’ will lead to similar results. WELL, I beg to differ…. My Advice is if you can’t make a decision because all your options are too similar in pros, cons, outcomes, ect. then the best thing to do is: CHANGE YOUR FUCKING OPTIONS.
Here we are again.. starting again.. I’m here again inside a google doc where I can actually see the shit I am typing onto the page. I prefer to draft in here for one particular reason only. One word: JUSTIFICATION. As you may or may not remember or know about me, I used to be an aspiring Legal Secretary/ Paralegal (who had dreams of becoming a Solicitor / Fee Earner) for all the wrong reasons really. I was writing to my new friends online recently and I touched on a little of that background, but first; what I mean by justification is the Block Text - Justify option on the editing-tool’s menu(?) I’m not entirely sure what that menu is called. I’ll show you in the image below the ‘Justify’ button (if it’s still called ‘Justify’) we used it a lot in the law firms when typing professional letters and I fell in love with the uniform appearance: see highlighted option:
Q - NB: To Whom It May Concern At SUBSTACK HQ? HELP: We need more funtions.. namely just the one for me please, if you will just add JUSTIFY in your formatting(?) feature’s menu soon maybe?… PLEASE?. Thank you :D
WHY? **It just makes anything, even my chaotic, far from concise ramblings, ever so appealing because it’s easier on the eye**
Here’s my side of a conversation telling a story or two regarding my history as a Legal Secretary…
We had a tornado in Manchester the other day.Sky News Report we didn't really notice, weren't affected too much fortunately. All that happened here was a bit of hailstone, lots of rain, sleet and high winds. I loved it so much that the sky turned nicotine yellow and hazy as an 80's retro 'smoking room' wallpaper would be stained somewhere in a small cupboard, usually at any old psych hospital. Those were the days eh? reminds me of when I was first working at Bermans, a junior Legal Secretary (because I refused to be known as The Office Junior this time around)
- previously to that job, I had worked for Newsquest Media Sales in an office located in Manchester City Centre, on Oxford Road. Close to the train station. I had been an official Office Junior there and had to sort through HUGE mailbags of post, mostly proof copies of newspapers which needed to be filed promptly. I also made an excellent dogsbody because I loved fitness (I was an absolute gym freak) - I would JUMP at any given chance to 'run to the butty (*sandwich*) shop, or the post office, dry cleaners, cake shop, coffee shop... you get the point. I would relish the free exercise.
Back at the Newsquest office I would make brews (*teas and coffees*). I would answer the phones and in the evening I would study at night school to do my NVQ in Business Administration. The job was an apprenticeship.. I was only about 16 and nearly 17. I had not been to any school since I was 12 years old, so this was the perfect 'opportunity to get some acedemic or whatever the fuck- useful qualifications for my CV and future work. I earned £70 per week and it was shit even then. Not a lot of money but it was the 'experience' and skills I wanted to learn. I was fortunate to get in there because I could have gone down the wrong path.
Back to Bermans, as a junior Legal Secretary - I was still doing mailroom duties, running around delivering things to courts, other firms, making the odd cup of tea for my fee-earner of Solicitor (the one that I was responsible to) I typed up letters which had been dictated and recorded on tape (little tiny cute tapes that you put in the machine) I can't remember the exact tern - oh! It's come back to me 'audio typing' (that wasn't difficult to guess lol) I was slow because I was self taught and at first I had to look at all the keys on the keyboard and learn to type with both hands and more than 2 or 3 fingers! That's when I asked the Partner (Boss of the firm) would he mind funding me to do an ILEX Legal Secretaries (course to get a) Certificate.
Also, as part of that course they teach you 'touch typing' . Even then it had a more modern name, again, I forget. I learned to speedtype (-just fast enough to pass the module) - I still touch type but some of my fingers refuse to move at all, like my pinky finger and possibly another ...I can't work it out but I know I DON'T do it the correct way. Typing is like driving a car (I can't drive!!! LOL ) but I can type... its like driving, everyone has their own style of doing it, their own way of doing things, habits, both good or bad, that work for them. I type like that. I can still type quickly.... but I choose not to bothing rushing because that's when I make school boy errors in grammar and punctuation. Last night for example, no capitalised i for I (oneself) ect. It's not important, I'm not a grammar Nazi but FFS... I am old school traditional and recognise these 'mistakes' (always by the time it's too late, like after I have hit send.. I can't always TRUST spell check because I make my own words up at times or for instance I might say a very long time as a very looooooong time so sometimes I don't go through spell check.) before I forget why I started on this topic... I didn't smoke anything at the time I worked at Bermans (remember I told you how I quit smoking at 16 and re-started at 21 - I remember those ages vividly when it comes to this subject. I have giving up and re-starting days etched inside my skull on the brain.) My memory otherwise is so poor, like a goldfish.. I can navigate a maze, other than that, I'm like "NIce Castle... *swims around*... Oh! "Nice Castle"... *swims* "Nice Castle.." :P
I remembered being so eager to please and so nervous and shy that the girl who was 'training me' she was a smoker, dripping in heavy gold jewellery, used to collect Piggin Ornaments i.e. Piggin this and Piggin That.. I'll attach an image (for no reason whatsoever). .. they were very expensive back then. She used to have immaculately applied acrylic nails in French Manicure colours, except the white tips had turned the same foggy yellow colour as the sky we had during the tornado. I used to go and sit with her in a small cupboard with a small filing cabinet the size of a bedside cabinet (night stand - i think USA people say) a small one drawer affair, which we would both perch our skinny little arses on and share it as a seat, crammed in next to the window and a mop bucket while she smoked her cigarette and made my fucking suit and my hair stink! I can't believe I did that. I used to be a bit of an inverted snob around smoking once I had ditched the habit... I used to watch the women on their way to their posh office jobs in the mornings walking alongside me, we would cut-through, take a shortcut through Boots Department Store. I often picked a different designer fragrance to spray from the TESTER bottles onto my skin and clothes to set me up for smelling gorgeous all day long. I would notice the 'smokers' doing the same thing.. and in my head I would honestly say to myself. "that daft bitch just been smoking for 3 minutes walking down and flicked her fag outside the shop... came in stinking... sprayed a load of perfume... walked outside and lit up another cig.. stupid cunt will still stink.. whats the fucking point!"
Yup. Hang on… I’ve been distracted and now I’m dying of nerves, wonder, cringe and curiosity!
LOOK who ‘features’ here! MEEE!
Every Writer,Poet, Creative, ALL OF YOU should please go ahead and give this wonderful person a sub to his channel… THANKS DUDE!
You may now be thinking.. ‘‘EVERYTHING ALRIGHT AT HOME CHASEY?’.. because of what’s coming up next:::::
As you may or……. “STFU Chasey, get on with it” OKAY. I have been feeling quite the lonely writer fool of late. I needed an outlet that actually gave me something back.. I was sick and tired of just hearing my own voice (hypothetically) listening to my own shit (in written form) and allowing myself to become this all consuming tornado of feelings and emotions like I was becoming my own personal jesus, number one fan, self-proclaimed wanker who was unfullfilling her own fucking prophecy.. ALONE .. I was thinking about Raymond.. If only life had been ‘‘Everyone loves Chasey’’ or what about ‘‘Chasey’s World’’ - I am neither a narcissist or a victim.. I had nobody to bounce off (yes, still sexually deprived but I’m over that right now.. as we speak..) I am Allllivvvve! My hands just do their own thing and wanna ‘TYPE HARD’ (I BELIEVE THE TYPE HARD quote/phrase/one-fucking-liner comment was coined by, and is or should be patented to, or trade marked/copyrighted to: Matt Wall at IHATEMATTWALL.COM - a nod to you if you ever read my shit and a huge thank you for having me appear on your show.xoox)
SO, I found a new place where I can make lots of lovely new penpals…. (see how well I am doing.. this is another lucky fucker that got away from my clutches.. I love to weed out the wimps) like I say on my actual profile:
Yes, I know, I know … I sound so inviting and elegant, approachable and ‘normal’ - tits what is tits..LOL whatever! (0_o) lololol
I always wish my beautiful Chasers a good, hearty, horny, happy farewell-for-now, Until we meet again.. and tonight is no different, as always I will be leaving you here with our EXIT SONG…
Yours Friendly, PenPally (and forever relatable.. Hmmn?) BUT always considerably yours! yess… HA! Love, Chasey Delaney💗
Excellent! Looks like you found a NEW Brave New World of painpals. The Question is: Are They Ready For You? Well, I, for one, am looking forward to how that pro or regresses -- ESPECIALLY since my Life hasn't been the same since they canceled the TV series Blind Date (1999-2006) and Clark James Gable's untimely (code: for inconvenient) demise during his superior skills as a Host on the TV Show Cheaters. That said, here's my fav KLF thang https://youtu.be/L9SzDFGbsFI?si=RY6_kQoDhr5OlYLN